So this month has flown by. I have been super busy with school and appointments I haven't been taking much time to focus on my goals.
I had big plans for this month but they were foiled by outside influences and myself.
Firstly, I haven't been able to exercise because I have been having knee pain and my doctor diagnosed me with Patellofemoral Syndrome and now I am doing physiotherapy once a week. Boo.
Also, I have been prescribe massage therapy to help with this intense headaches I've been getting almost everyday. It has already cut down how many I have been getting so I am pretty happy about that. But alas, another appointment to go to every week.
I also got orthotics because apparently my feet "move around too much". lol
Secondly, I take full responsibility for my failure in the diet department. I started out great. I was abstinent from the list of foods I devised that are off limits, and I only had a couple small binges. After that it's been sporadic. Some days I am abstinent and binge-free, some days one of them, some days none of them. This past week I have been eating chocolate like it's my job. As much chocolate as I can get my hands on! It's sickening...yesterday I was having full on conversations with my stomach because it was talking for about 4 hours from all the crap I ate that day.
THIS HAS GOT TO STOP.
Time to reevaluate and recommit. Tomorrow, yes tomorrow I WILL succeed. I WILL eat only what I have said I am going to eat in my food journal on caloriecount.com. I WILL NOT break my abstinence and WILL remain binge-free. I CAN do this. I WILL do this.
....The only problem is I said I was going to get back on track yesterday, and then when that failed, I said I am going to get back on track today...so my hope is dwindling....BUT I am desperate...I have to do something. I have only lost 2lbs in the last 4 weeks...and after the last four days I am sure that has change to gained 2 lbs...ugh.
I think what set me off is I had a really good week the first week and I only lost 2lbs. I am not used to losing so little in a week. My old ways of severe calorie restriction and excessive exercising would have seen at least 5 or 6 lbs...I was so disappointed I gave up a little. I felt like it wasn't worth it. In reality, if I would have stuck to 2lbs a week I would have been down 6 lbs by now instead of 2... It is a change I am going to have to get used to. The old ways are calling to me, but I haven't yet given up on trying to have a healthy mind and body. This is how I feel today...
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Great Thinspo Blog
I stumbled upon this blog while looking for thinspo (thin + inspiration) and I am hooked on it!
http://picsandmodels.blogspot.com/
Oh the left hand side there is a box that you can scroll through hundreds of models in alphabetical order. I have spent at least 5 hours going through the different models in order and I am only at "H" names.
Hope you find these pics inspiring.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Butt Thinspo
I have wanted to post Butt thinspo for a while. I decided this year that my main focus is going to be on my lower body, particularily my ass. I want a big, round, firm booty i.e. Marisa Miller's booty (the first picture). Hope this inspires you to get lunging and squatting!
Monday, January 4, 2010
First post of 2010..let's make it good!
Happy New Year!
I love New Year's! People are all a twitter with new goals and aspirations, the gym is full of new eager exercisers, and the motivation is contagious. Many will falter by February, but I won't...I will be on that elliptical - proud - I have lasted beyond the average. Fuck ya. There's one goal for 2010. I have MANY, many...many.
Usually I am with those that falter but this year I have done things very differently. I have set myself up so that the earth would have to crash down around me in order for me to fail.
To stick to exercise: I have two exercise buddies that are committed to the gym too. I also have a calender that is posted on the wall in front of my computer and every day that I exercise I write down what I did and I get a star :)...I have done this before and it is soo motivating to look up and see an entire month full of stars when the month is up. You feel very accomplished and you have the results to show for it!
To stick to diet/lifestyle change: I am planning my meals the day ahead every night. I am also counting calories by putting them into this awesome website I found - www.caloriecount.com - it does all the work for you, you just have to find the foods. Plus there are great forums and articles to keep you motivated. Also I am going to blog everyday/week my calorie intake, my exercise, how many days I've been abstinent and binge free. I feel this will help me stay accountable. I have also started going to Overeaters Anonymous meetings and I feel very supported through the people I have met.
Sticking to my goals overall: Every month I am going to sit down and reevaluate what my goals are, how they have been going, if there needs to be any adjusting (could do more, need to do less) and if I want to change them. I have also set up rewards for when I reach my goals (that don't involve food rewards). I am also doing my body measurements once a month to notice achievements that can't be seen in pounds on the scale. I have set up overall goals, concrete plans and long-term goals so that I stay motivated. I have gone on a thinspo hunt and have found tons of new pictures that make me want to start running and never stop.
This year I will ace my courses, get the banging body that I have always wanted, and be more productive than ever! I welcome you 2010 with open arms...Be good to me!
I love New Year's! People are all a twitter with new goals and aspirations, the gym is full of new eager exercisers, and the motivation is contagious. Many will falter by February, but I won't...I will be on that elliptical - proud - I have lasted beyond the average. Fuck ya. There's one goal for 2010. I have MANY, many...many.
Usually I am with those that falter but this year I have done things very differently. I have set myself up so that the earth would have to crash down around me in order for me to fail.
To stick to exercise: I have two exercise buddies that are committed to the gym too. I also have a calender that is posted on the wall in front of my computer and every day that I exercise I write down what I did and I get a star :)...I have done this before and it is soo motivating to look up and see an entire month full of stars when the month is up. You feel very accomplished and you have the results to show for it!
To stick to diet/lifestyle change: I am planning my meals the day ahead every night. I am also counting calories by putting them into this awesome website I found - www.caloriecount.com - it does all the work for you, you just have to find the foods. Plus there are great forums and articles to keep you motivated. Also I am going to blog everyday/week my calorie intake, my exercise, how many days I've been abstinent and binge free. I feel this will help me stay accountable. I have also started going to Overeaters Anonymous meetings and I feel very supported through the people I have met.
Sticking to my goals overall: Every month I am going to sit down and reevaluate what my goals are, how they have been going, if there needs to be any adjusting (could do more, need to do less) and if I want to change them. I have also set up rewards for when I reach my goals (that don't involve food rewards). I am also doing my body measurements once a month to notice achievements that can't be seen in pounds on the scale. I have set up overall goals, concrete plans and long-term goals so that I stay motivated. I have gone on a thinspo hunt and have found tons of new pictures that make me want to start running and never stop.
This year I will ace my courses, get the banging body that I have always wanted, and be more productive than ever! I welcome you 2010 with open arms...Be good to me!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Help for achieving New Years resolutions and 2010 goals!
I have been working on my New Years resolutions and goals for 2010 and this year I have sought out extra support for making them. I have been reading tons of articles on how to set reasonable goals and how to stay motivated to achieve them.
Since many of us set New Years resolutions I thought it might be helpful to post them here for others to benefit from. Good luck this year! I will be posting my progress as it goes along and I hope to hear about yours too!
Ideas for New Years resolutions:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=1289
Step-by-step goal setting techniques:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=103
Setting attainable goals article
http://exercise.about.com/cs/exbeginners/a/beggoals.htm
Sticking to new years resolutions, or goals made around this time of year:
http://caloriecount.about.com/blog/partners/make-new-years-resolutions-stick-b362567
31 tips to staying motivated for your goals:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/calendar_2007-01.pdf
Top 10 strategies for success:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=518
Optimism and the Power of Positive Thinking:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/wellness_articles.asp?id=835
Since many of us set New Years resolutions I thought it might be helpful to post them here for others to benefit from. Good luck this year! I will be posting my progress as it goes along and I hope to hear about yours too!
Ideas for New Years resolutions:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=1289
Step-by-step goal setting techniques:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=103
Setting attainable goals article
http://exercise.about.com/cs/exbeginners/a/beggoals.htm
Sticking to new years resolutions, or goals made around this time of year:
http://caloriecount.about.com/blog/partners/make-new-years-resolutions-stick-b362567
31 tips to staying motivated for your goals:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/calendar_2007-01.pdf
Top 10 strategies for success:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivation_articles.asp?id=518
Optimism and the Power of Positive Thinking:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/wellness_articles.asp?id=835
Monday, December 28, 2009
Thinspo for 2010
Since I haven't posted any thinspo in a while I thought I would post a few of my inspiration pictures for my 2010 weight loss and beauty goals. I really all about legs at the moment. "Fawne legs" as my friend calls them; the ones that don't touch in the middle. Enjoy.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
"It'sss Thaaat...Time of year..."
So it has been a while since I've posted. Here's the month of December in a nutshell:
- Had my choir concert and received a school credit for the course
- Wrote my stats and music finals...bombed one, aced the latter, but did really well on my overall marks
- Began Dialectical Behaviour Therapy which will continue for 5 more months
- Mood has been very stable
- Came home from school for Christmas on the 20th
- Fulfilled Christmas traditions: Christmas Eve and a million perogies at Grandma's, Christmas morning presents and steak and egg breakfast with Aunt and Uncle and then Christmas day dinner with Turkey and all the fixins at Aunt and Uncle's ( I am perma-stuffed)
- Santa was very good to me...everything I asked for I got! :)
One thing I got that is excellent is a recipe book called "Hungry Girl: 200 under 200", which is 200 recipes under 200 calories. I have looked at most of it and it was definitely a good gift to ask for. I know I will get a lot of use out of it in the new year. Now I want the first book that is all recipes by Hungry Girl.
Now I have a week until I go back to school. Have plans to get together with a few friends while I'm home and then going back to School for New Years.
Now I am reevaluating previous goals I have set and I am finalizing New Years resolutions. I am excited to get on this weight loss bandwagon and start back on the right track with school and my music writing.
How is your holidays?
- Had my choir concert and received a school credit for the course
- Wrote my stats and music finals...bombed one, aced the latter, but did really well on my overall marks
- Began Dialectical Behaviour Therapy which will continue for 5 more months
- Mood has been very stable
- Came home from school for Christmas on the 20th
- Fulfilled Christmas traditions: Christmas Eve and a million perogies at Grandma's, Christmas morning presents and steak and egg breakfast with Aunt and Uncle and then Christmas day dinner with Turkey and all the fixins at Aunt and Uncle's ( I am perma-stuffed)
- Santa was very good to me...everything I asked for I got! :)
One thing I got that is excellent is a recipe book called "Hungry Girl: 200 under 200", which is 200 recipes under 200 calories. I have looked at most of it and it was definitely a good gift to ask for. I know I will get a lot of use out of it in the new year. Now I want the first book that is all recipes by Hungry Girl.
Now I have a week until I go back to school. Have plans to get together with a few friends while I'm home and then going back to School for New Years.
Now I am reevaluating previous goals I have set and I am finalizing New Years resolutions. I am excited to get on this weight loss bandwagon and start back on the right track with school and my music writing.
How is your holidays?
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