When I lose a lb, I feel like I just shot heroin. Now I've never done heroin, but from what I've read I get that rush, that overwhelming out-of-this-world, insatiable feeling. I want more. I want it now. I feel like going for a run for the next 4 hours. I feel like doing pushups until my arms give out. I want this feeling again and as soon as possible. I am the happiest person around when I'm losing, and the most depressed person when I'm not. I daydream for hours of what I'll look like if it keeps up at this rate. The shopping, the looks from guys and other girls...the dream of being "that girl". I'm completely infatuated all in a matter of seconds.
It is actually scary. The fact that I get such a reaction makes me think that I definitely have a problem.
