I feel like I am searching for something but I don't know what it is and just feeling completely incomplete. I break down all the time because I just don't feel right. I am unhappy...but I have a happy facade. Nobody knows how I feel and I don't know how to explain it so that they would understand. So I continue to search. I continue to starve. I guess it has an essence of hope because I haven't given up...but it is a terribly lonely place to be and it is excrutiatingly agonizing. 

Dress for the wedding! W pics!

So I have been having a dress situation for the wedding I have coming up and basically I would of had to lose 4" in my chest/bust by the 29th of this month to fit into my dress so that the alterations woman could make me a corset to wear under it. It woudl have cost $130. My dress was only $50.

After much deliberation....I went to the mall yesterday and bought a new dress....a sexy one. Here are some pics! SOrry for the bad quality! If it wasn`t 6 am and my batteries didn`t die I would have done my makeup and retook them. OH and cleaned my bathroom mirror! LOLS And yes that`s my skin in the back....just an inch from hip to hip, but it`s kinda risky, no?