ugh.....

I have offically completed the first week back to school.

SO far:
Missed 2.5 classes out of 4.
Lived through 15 hrs of auditions for my singing group
Deliberated for endless hours about auditionees
Survived one crazy bachelorette/halloween party (might post pics later)
Travelled 6.5 hours on a train, non-consecutively
Spent waaaaay too much in multiple cab fares
Broke a phone
Got a new phone....100 dollars later
Binge and purged for the first time in a very long time.
Binged. binged. binged....
Got called "obese" and "overweight" 4 times by the same doctor
Cried twice on a bus ride home
Hit a record high in weight: 218lbs

I think I might do a recap after most of my weeks....it will keep me on track.

This week...need to make it to all 4 classes, have first rehearsal, keep in touch, attend appointments, etc etc....

I never thought I'd say this...

So I decided a week or so ago that I was going to try and lose weight in a healthy fashion. So far...I have gained a pound. I have not been watching, I was in the hospital, I have had cravings for chocolate constantly, and then in the last three days I have basically just been on one big binge.

This needs to stop. Weight should be going down, NOT up.

So...to assist my new healthy eating and get it going in the right direction...I can't believe I am saying this, but I am going to try weight watchers.

My friend and I go to weight watchers meetings every week on Wednesday and there are so many success stories in there. My friend started weight watchers two weeks ago and she has already lost 6.6lbs. This week alone she lost 4! I was really impressed and now I need to get on this weight loss bandwagon.

It is funny because I have been on so many diets. I was first put on a diet by my parents when I was 11. I have done the weight watchers thing before and it worked so why not give it a go again? Ya I am not going to be dropping 5lbs a week like I could if I fasted, but I will be healthy and strong while still losing 2lbs a week.

My parents are coming up this weekend and my mom is going to bring me all the weight watchers books and stuff that she has from the years she did it. SO I plan on starting on Sunday. I am not joining the actual weight watchers I am just going to be doing the points system and following the program on my own. In the meantime, I am going to do the following:

- write down everything I eat
- No junkfood. Fruit as treats.
- Eat more vegetables
- Eat more protein
- Drink lots of water
- Get my ass in the gym!
- Not getting on the scale until next wednesday (weight watchers meeting weigh in day)

Ugh, I feel like shit. Damn you binge days!