Curvspiration

SO today I got up and I decided to embrace my natural curves. I put on a dress that is form fitting in the hips and butt, and a short grey cardigan that hugs my upper half and I am WORKING IT! I might even post a pic later if I get the nerve. I am walking with a strut and telling myself with every step that I am hot shit, not everyone will think so, but people who can appreciate a full figured woman will have their tongues waggin! I did awesome eye makeup, yellow in the center that goes into orange and then hot pink on the outer corner. I also parted my hair to a different side. I';m just a whole new woman! lol Fresh look, fresh attitude. Now I just need to keep it up for the weekend because I have to sing at my cousins wedding on Saturday. I am going to post pictures of my outfit that night because it's a strapless dress and I am doing henna as jewelery...it should look amazing.

Anyway, enjoy my inspiration for the day. And NOTE: curvy is NOT a euphemism for FAT!

Thinspo for April

song of the week...

I like the peace
in the backseat
I dont have to drive
I dont have to speak...
Ive been learning to drive. my whole life..

Arcade fire - In the backseat

How strange it is to never know love.

How scary it is to find love and feel out of place.

How sad it is to find happiness and feel depressed.

Why can't life be simple. Wait. When life was simple, I wasn't satisfied. When will I be content...

...reminising...

I am feeling very contemplative.

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of performances with my a cappella music group I am a part of. I am one of the conductors and I absolutely love it. I have enjoyed it so much this term I have accredited it to keeping me sane. Not enough time to think. Just go from practice to practice to show to show.

In this whirlwind I have lost track of my feelings, my emotions and my goals. I just feel happy all the time and that is that. I guess that is not a bad thing but that is so forgein to me. Just typing that makes me want to cry. I feel like I have lost a part of myself. The part that yearned for change and for love. I've found love. My life has changed. So why am I crying typing this?

I am so confused.

I was looking over some of the pictures I have posted on facebook over the last years I have been in university and they made me laugh but they also made me realize how far I have come. It has also made me realize that I miss a lot of people in my life who have moved away or who I only see on special occasions. I also realized that I am missing so many memories, of the good and bad. I guess I will never know why I don't remember most of my life.

I used to live with so many questions and now I must learn to live with so many questions unanswered.

A tribute to the beautiful Elizabeth Taylor, RIP

First 2011 post - THINSPO!