New Month = New Life

When I came back to school in September I was focused. I managed to lose ten pounds by Thanksgiving weekend (October 12th). Then after that it all went downhill. I let myself eat whatever I wanted at Thanksgiving dinner and that dinner is what broke the camels back as they say. Then the next weekend was Oktoberfest and I got super drunk and ended up eating THREE Oktoberfest sausages, giant buns and all, in ONE HOUR! The sad part is I don't even remember eating all of them. lol Then came Halloween and all the mini-chocolate bars I could get my hands on....Nightmare.

However, I gained back 5 after Oktoberfest and then somehow lost 1.5 between then and now. So that leaves me at 183.5 yesterday.

Over the last few weeks I have felt lost. My drive to accomplish my goals went out the window and all motivation seemed to subside. I pretty much just focused on Halloween and my party. Now that Halloween is over I feel sad and empty...but I am not going to take this lying down! No!

Plans for my new life kicked in on Sunday. Here are some of my new life rules:

For weight loss:
- <1000 cals/day
- Go to the gym daily
- INPUT = OUTPUT, exercise off whatever calories ingested that day**
- Lift weights 1-2/wk
- If a friend asks to do some kind of physical activity, if I'm available, I cannot say no

Other Rules:
- Must not leave the house in sweat pants
- Must put on makeup when going to class
- Must go to all classes
- Must make it to the library at least once a week
- NO BINGES

Goals:
- Establish 1 short term goal per week
November 1-8th: lose 3-4 pounds

- Establish 1 long term goal in four areas: physical, emotional, mental, spiritual
Physical: Lose ten+ pounds by December 1st.
Emotional: Find other ways to cope with overwhelming emotions outside of cutting
Mental: Start study for final exams after midterms are over (November 12th) - I want to see those 90's baby!
Spiritual: get in touch with nature

So these will probably all change as I see more relevant and specific goals but this is my new direction for now. I'm pumped! A friend of mine has joined me in the mission to lose weight. She does weight watchers so I am going to accompany her to those meetings (it's free as long as you don't weight in) once a week and we are going to do a separate weigh in for me at the gym. Definitely my two most important goals as I see it at the moment are the physical and mental goals.

I am just raring to go! My friend was really nervous about the weigh in today but the way I look at it, no matter how bad it is, it is only down from here. And it isn't like we are being subjected to a weigh in and we can't exercise or eat properly...we have all the power! I feel like nothing can stop me now. I have been in the gym the last three days burning a minimum or 700 cals and I am not tired so I know I can keep it up.

To my two followers :"), any goals currently??