She's so hiiiiiiiigh...

Lately I have been feeling elated. I feel like I am walking on a cloud. Everything is sunshine and puppies it seems. I don't have any reason to be this happy, on the contrary I spent the entire weekend working on my presentation and assignment that was due Monday and studied for two midterms that were today. I also had a headache from Friday till Monday and I was sick all last week....sooo...no reason to be this way.

I had an appointment with my psychiatrist on Monday and he thinks maybe I am too happy. I'm just like, "How can you be TOO happy?". Well apparently you can.

It is not that I am just happy, I am also super productive...it's like I am buzzing around with a motor attached to my backside. I just have so much energy and I want to do anything and everything. I started writing a new book, I cleaned everything in the house, I have sparked up conversations with absolute strangers just because I feel like talking. I want to call all my friends up and talk for hours.

Last week it was like something just clicked. I was content one moment and then suddenly I was soo excited I couldn't catch my breath. I tried to calm myself down but I couldn't....that's when I see being too happy as a problem.

So far I don't really see any down sides to this. I am accomplishing more in the last few days than I have been in the last few months. Happiness is WAY better than sadness, my usual emotion. And I have so many ideas...and from the reactions of people around me apparently I am more funny this way.

I am kind of sad though...because if this is some kind of bipolar episode that means it is not the real me...the real me doesn't get much done and spends a lot of the time doing nothing...plus I don't think I am as funny or quick. But maybe he's wrong and I am actually just finally out of my depression.

Only time will tell I guess.